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08 January 2012 @ 04:34 pm
What is this?

A recent visit from spryng and her Lady reminded me that you can use this thing to put your own words into the internet, where they stick awkwardly for you to regret later.

And to think I'd just been using it to read customerssuck.

Rants forthcoming.
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11 July 2011 @ 05:32 pm
Would you uproot your life and move to another city for someone that you love?

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15 August 2010 @ 11:15 am
My journal is now ugly because I apparently clung to S1 formatting for too long (I made my layout in like... 2004?); my colors and background became broken by some recent internal system change at LJ.

Sadly I use LJ so infrequently these days that I don't really have the energy to design a new one. So, here's a boring brown S2 prefab thing.
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01 February 2010 @ 12:09 am
The times I think about writing are the times I cannot write. Usually walking or while riding the bus.

I can wax very poetic in my head, and no matter how hard I tell myself that I'll come home and get it down, I don't. I don't think this problem is uncommon or unique to myself, but I do feel like I've developed a particularly acute case of it, entangled as it is with my other issues and anxiety. It's, at this point, a less crippling variant of whatever headplague made it nearly impossible to actually write my thesis.

I'm trying to push through it, as you might have gathered. There was a time when I wrote LJ entries knowing that 90% of my friends would be sure to read them. That's... much less the case now. Some of them still check their friends page, of course, but most have moved on.

On the subject of friends, I begin to worry that I'm going to keep going through the same cycle for the rest of my life--build up a persona and a cadre of friends, set it all on fire and walk far, far away.

I know coming to Minnesota wasn't just me leaving everything behind (although it was that too), but even with Cameron and his family and longstanding desire to move in mind, it was still born out of the rut that I had gotten myself into. And that was me hiding from everything.

Not hiding now. I'm surprisingly social, given the versions of myself that so many former friends knew. I'm starting a book club at work, of all things. I go out drinking with coworkers. I assembled a D&D group of strangers at a random Meetup thing. Cameron sometimes remarks upon how much more social I am than he is. Still strikes me as strange, sometimes. I also seem to have developed a "strong work ethic"... my boss, Mary, used this phrase when asking if I'd be interested in a promotion, and it's stuck around in my brain ever since. I guess it's true, but like so many other things lately, I'm not sure where it came from.

I probably shouldn't delude myself into thinking my discomfort at personal chameleonishness is in any way unique. Even so, it pulls at me sometimes. Mostly at night, like now.
Current Music: "All of This Past" - Sarah Bettens
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17 January 2010 @ 11:49 pm

I need to figure out how to start using this thing again.
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22 January 2009 @ 04:35 pm
What's that about anyway?

Do deserts even know what rain is?

How can they miss it?
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28 November 2008 @ 05:37 pm
Alt-Thanksgiving went really well.

Everyone said I made the best maki.

Cameron made really good sushi rice. He is now making more so we can have leftovers.

Sushi making is really fun.
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05 November 2008 @ 01:50 pm
"America today is a world away from the cruel and prideful bigotry of that time. There is no better evidence for this than the election of an African-American to the presidency of the United States." - from McCain's concession speech

Sure we are. Why is it that the most socially regressive conservatives I know are also the most hamfistedly vocal about how evil slavery was?


Also amusing how about 45% of his speech was about how groovy it is that Obama is black and how that must make black people so very proud.

Oh well. At least he didn't win.

In other news, does anyone else get a little nervous when people compare Michelle Obama to Jackie O?

It's like: yes, she is stylish and graceful and her husband is a progressive... oh god, he's doomed.
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03 November 2008 @ 04:00 pm
You know how you can be aware of something's existence but then not actually experience it until a decade later and then you're like "huh that's pretty good I wish I had known"?

Crash Test Dummies.

Pretty good!
Current Music: "God Shuffled His Feet" - Crash Test Dummies
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06 April 2008 @ 06:52 pm
So, I've been planning on making a serious return to livejournal for about a week now. Y'know, with actual posts.

This isn't that. But soon! Once I finish a few papers.

But I did want to share my thesis prospectus. Mostly because I can't believe I'm already at the cusp of the thesis. I remember orientation being so recent. Also this way I can look back in a year when I'm pulling my hair out over the thesis and see the tiny, seemingly innocuous seed of hope from which the demon sprang forth.

And so, the informal prospectus, which is supposed to be scrawled in a tiny box on a carbon-triplicate form (mine says "Please see attached"):

"In my thesis, I'd like to examine two historical/literary moments with some very obvious parallels: the rise of print culture in the centuries following the arrival of the printing press in England, and the modern wave of New Media in our own historical period--for instance, the phenomenon of blogging. At both of these points in history, the sheer amount of text in existence increased exponentially, and in both cases there followed serious concerns about the authenticity of text, the relationship of writer to reader, and a host of moral questions that mostly boil down to 'How can we know that people are reading the right texts?'

While my ultimate focus is still uncertain, I'd like to use these parallel phenomena to do interdisciplinary work that engages both sides of my joint-disciplinary concentration, Literature and Medieval & Renaissance Studies. As of this writing, I'm particularly interested in using some of the literary criticism that has recently arisen in response to New Media as a sort of lens to look back on the texts that emerged in the early days of print culture. Some of my potential areas of focus include: the reader/writer relationship, news culture, and concerns in popular pedagogy."

There follows some tentative bibliography, which I doubt anyone really needs to see.
Current Mood: liminal
Current Music: "Crazy" [Both a cover and a remix thereof] - Alanis Morissette